Good Success

For so long I have lived with the fear of not having enough. It took me a while to realize that the spirit of poverty gripped my bloodline in such a way that the  seed of fear from that particular generational curse was planted early in my childhood. I wanted success. I wanted to be successful. I went to college and graduated in early August of 2011. I applied for countless jobs after graduating, went on several interviews, and everyone told me the exact same thing - I was a good designer but I needed experience. I went through a season where I was unemployed for over 14 months. It was extremely hard. My mother had been on social security since I was in the second grade and my father died my sophomore year in college. Help was limited and the fear of  me not being what  I had desired my entire life showed its face. I can remember trying to get though a full week with only 20 dollars. I had a car but most times I didn't even have money for gas. I never went out -  out of fear of not having money to pay for food or fear that some activity would cause for money I didn't have. I started doing flyers to help sustain myself while I continued to search for  a job. At the time I was charging maybe 20 dollars for a flyer lol. I set me up a sweet hotmail account and went for what I knew lol. I later applied for a job that had nothing to do with my major in college. A friend told me about it so I gave it a shot and I got the job and started working a 9 to 5. It was great. I loved the people. I loved the interaction. The pay was good. It was what I believed to be a God-send. Fast forward to July 2015.... I was terminated. I remember sitting in the office and the team from corporate explaining to me the reason I was being let go.  Some of the reasonings presented were far fetched... while others were true. In that moment my character was challenged. My power to stand for what was right was challenged and my idea of success sat before me staring me in the face. So many questions flooded my mind. Where through this process did I lose my conviction? When did this "success" silence my need to stand for what was right? If the steps on your ladder to success are filled with impure motives, intentions, and actions then your success isn't prosperity - its a temporary facade that will soon reveal itself. I went into a DEEP depression after being fired. I was embarrassed to pray because  I thought I  had abused a blessing. In that season I learned that it was never my job to "assist" God in my promotion.. but it was my job to trust the divine timing of my life to him. Afterwards, I was forced into entrepreneurship. I didn't have time to prepare. The next assignment was waiting there, and since that July in 2015 I have been a full time entrepreneur. I want to encourage every business owner out there to maintain your integrity in every step of your journey. Trust the plan of God more than the blueprint of what you deem as success. Don't allow money to be the ruler you use to gage your promotion. Keep a pure heart, work hard, be relentless, be diligent, be honorable, be determined, be integral, be reliable, be honest, be pure in heart, and be true to your own assignment... and I promise you... you will have GOOD SUCCESS. What is good success? A life that is filled with the undeniable, confirming favor of God from a pure heart and a clean life.